Don’t look back in anger.

3 Jul

I was scouring through my media library, looking for a song that won’t depress me (in other words, anything but a mushy love song or a heart-breaking love song). One particular song caught my eye–Don’t Look Back in Anger by Oasis–and a lightbulb went on in my head.

“That’s a good tip for me right now,” I thought.

I spent the whole day spacing out while surfing the net or watching TV. I went through the motions of eating, doing the laundry, washing the dishes. Where my mind was? I couldn’t tell exactly–but I can tell how it felt like. It felt like my mind was floating in a miserable, dark room; a room so dark that you can’t make out exactly what’s in it.

I seriously don’t know what to think. I know what I’m feeling, though: a pathetic mix of sadness, longing, regret, and anger.

Anger is such a bitch. It’s very hard to control, especially for highly emotional people like me. And once you let it loose, it’s gonna take over–and change everything in a split-second.

And so as I stared at my monitor and the TV, I fought back the anger bubbling inside of me.

Thank you Liam and Noel… I shall not look back in anger, indeed.